pascua.phillip

When i feel like this, or get to this point

I tend to question all the little things and everything in between. I question myself for so long, it leads up to this rant I’m about to throw together roughly. It just puts me into that state of mind where I can see it all.

All the negativity my body harbors, all the negative images I see and hate about myself, all the negativity relating from one subject just unleashes out and I’m a totally different person. It’s weird because it just takes over me. Like, a glass of clean purified water, add a drop of ink and it spreads like a disease. All that’s left is to pour it out and start off fresh again. I feel like I stay in this position till I hit rock bottom, because there’s no where else to go but up. It’s as if I’m rebooting myself, in a sense. You know? Well, it hurts. It hurts for awhile until it’s all fixed and done with. I don’t like it.

I’m sorry.